Some Random Thoughts

So as I walk back and forth between everywhere I go, I am always thinking. I walk a lot and I have a lot of time to ponder to myself. They are always random thoughts, too. So I just want to write them down so I can remember them. I know that blogs are more interesting when there are pictures, but this post is just going to be words because they are my thoughts and there are no pictures to go with them. So here it goes!

• I never thought I would consider an orange to be a delicacy. Of course they have a ton of sweets here in Russia, but an orange is always on my mind. I love them! They are so good and juicy! I kind of have a craving for oranges all the time. At least they are good for you to eat!
• I have lost weight here! It's awesome! I can now take my pants off without unbuttoning them! I am eating a lot healthier than I do at home. I probably eat more vegetables in one meal than I have in my whole entire life. I am actually starting to like vegetables. Of course I still HATE carrots, but everything else is starting to taste better to me.
  
• It is amazing how the church is true everywhere in the world. I feel like I am in Utah when I am at church because everyone speaks English and the church still operates the same way! The teachings of the gospel are the same. The way the church operates is the same. The callings are the same. The people are the same. The bishop still cares about you and I can tell the missionaries here, the senior missionaries, really, truly, love their missions. They are awesome! I am sorry if my thoughts are kind of messed up and if I am not using correct grammar in my sentences. I guess I should work on that since I am teaching English. But I just have so much going through my head that it is hard to write it all down fast enough! I love the gospel so much and I am so glad that the Lord has set up the church in such a way that everyone throughout the whole world can know of it's goodness and truthfulness.
• Teaching is HARD! Especially when I thought I would teaching little kids and I have ended up teaching teenagers. All through training and all the way to Russia I thought I was going to be teaching little kids. Like 3-6 year old children. Then when I got here I was told I was going to be teaching 8-14 year olds. HUGE DIFFERENCE! I have not been around this age a lot. I have babysat a lot through my life and I am better with little children than I am with older children, so this has been a huge challenge. It is hard because the teenagers don't want to be at English School. They want to be out with their friends, partying. I can tell they are only there because their parents are making them go. They don't want to talk at all and that is what the whole ILP program is about...having the kids talk constantly. I feel like a bad teacher because the kids are not talking and I don't feel like they are learning anything. It is also hard because the ages 8-14 is kind of a big difference. A lot of the things I plan are really fun for the 8, 9, and 10 year olds, but really not fun for the older kids. I have to constantly ask myself if what I am planning is going to be fun for everyone. Recently I have come up with activities that are more fun but not as language centered. That means that the activities are more fun, but there is not as much talking going on. I want the kids to have a positive experience and I want them to talk, but right now I can't figure out how to fit both in the same lesson. Hopefully I will be able to figure it out sooner rather than later because an ILP director is coming in a couple of weeks to see how our teaching is going and I need to be able to show him that I am a good teacher. Being a good teacher, to me, is having a language-centered activity while at the same time making sure the kids are having a good time. If they don't have a good time, I am afraid they will tell their parents, their parents will get mad, and they will stop coming to English class. That is not what I want to happen. I am learning a lot everyday so hopefully I will become a better teacher. I take comfort in knowing that I am doing my best and that is all I can do. I am constantly trying to become better and I am working hard. I am doing all I can, and now I just need to remember that after all I can do, the Lord will help me and do the rest. I am putting a lot of faith in the Lord during this time in my life and I know He will help me do what I need to do. (Sorry, that was kind of a long thought).
• I love it here in Russia! Just yesterday I realized that it finally feels like home. I am past all the culture shock (finally) and I am really comfortable here! At the beginning I was scared that I would never feel comfortable here, but I do now. This is my home for the next couple of months and I am happy about that.

Well, that's all for now. I am sure that as soon as I get off my computer I will remember some more things I wanted to write about, but I will have to save those thoughts for another day. I am so grateful for everyone who has given me so much support and I love you all!